Deck: Light Seer’s Tarot
First Impressions: Balance, Magick, on the right path, looking forward
Book: Determination, victory, speed, action, harnessing opposing forces, travel, confidence, being in control
Guidance: Take action and manifest what you want
Journaling:
This is an interesting thing to reflect upon because I set out to manifest a salary of $150K a year and I was a few hundred dollars short of that last year, but when I add in the couple hundred I got from Metro for participating in the study, I hit it almost exactly right on. However, I’m not happy. I feel like I have become the person I never wanted to be, working for a huge company, and being a wage slave. However, I really really like my paycheck. I want to do good with my life, but I also need my paycheck to make ends meet.
Maybe those are my two horses: the need for money and the need to do good. I don’t know how to reconcile the two because I’ve gotten myself into a bind and need to make what I do in order to pay my bills, but I’m bored with what I do. I don’t know what the solution is, but maybe I need to put it out there to manifest. I will give some thought to what it is I truly want and see what I can manifest.
Where I’m At: I’m sitting on the couch at home with Clark curled up next to me. It’s a fairly peaceful day and I’m working through work stuff. It’s funny, it’s one of those days where I don’t have a lot of meetings, but I feel like I don’t want to work through the backlog. Sometimes, it feels I get so much more done when I don’t have enough time.
Weather: It’s cold today with the highs only expected to get to the low 20s.
Moon Phase: Last Quarter 55%
Sunrise / Sunset: 7:10 am/ 6:10 pm
March 29, 2022 Revisit
I like the idea of the two horses as the need to do good and the need to make money. My challenge is to figure out how to balance the two. As I reflect on this, I think the piece that I’m missing is that the need to make money isn’t bad and doesn’t make me a bad person. Right now I need to make the salary that I’m making. I also need to remember that if I leave before next May I won’t be vested in my retirement and that’s important. And neither of those things make me a bad person.