This deck was one of the decks offered at the NorthStar Tarot Conference. I decided not to buy it then, but it kept calling to me so I ended up purchasing it,
First Impressions: I kind of like this card as it looks like a butterfly who has suddenly found herself in the lap of luxury.
Guidance: Balance, tenderheartedness, finding your dream in life
Journaling
What I love about this card is that it is the nine of pentacles, which speaks to being my own person and being who I am meant to be, but it does so in a beautiful and colorful way. I have historically disliked the nine of pentacles because the figure has always looked like she was in a gilded cage and if she was trapped. For me, she was the hermit in some ways because she was alone, but it did not appear that she had the hermit’s freedom to live life on her own terms. Maybe that is a reflection of my upbringing because I was brought up to believe that a woman should take care of others so it was inconceivable to me that I could choose to be a hermit because that is the opposite of taking care of others. That is being selfish and putting my own needs ahead of everyone else’s. It didn’t help that John very derisvely called me a hermit and could not fathom why I did not like to be around other people as much as he did.
I’m starting to realize that the Nine of Pentacles is really about building my life and living it on my own terms. I can choose to be around people or I can choose to have my own sacred space. I think one of the reasons that I’ve always loved to travel for work is that I was able to have my own space and my privacy without feeling guilty. I was supporting my family so of course I had to travel. I will admit that I always love hanging in hotel rooms, but I actually like being in my own home better. I love spending time just puttering in my house.
Where I’m At: It is Lammas today, but it doesn’t even feel like a spiritual day as I have so much work to do. I signed up for the Tarot Blog Hop and ended up pulling something together, but it felt so rushed. I had so many meetings today that it felt like I was jumping from thing to thing to thing.
Weather: It was a beautiful day out
Moon Phase: Full Moon
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:19 / 8:45
Gratitudes
I’m grateful my fellow bloggers are patient with me
I’m grateful for getting to be home this week and snuggling with Wendy
I’m grateful for taking a walk with Clam and with the dogs
I’m grateful that Sean isn’t working wonky hours anymore
I”m grateful Sean paid to get his car fixed
I’m grateful for Derrick and his support